Gabi Clayton's Guestbook #56 - From 2/23/05 to 5/20/05
Note: This guestbook reads from the bottom of the page up. -- Gabi

Wednesday, May 18, 2005  12:04:15 PM Name: Gabe Steckline E-Mail: gabe_steckline@yahoo.com Homepage: Location: United States Comments: that storie touch me people should not judge the way people are becouse we are all humans

Wednesday, May 18, 2005  1:58:40 AM Name: Jesus Canizales E-Mail: Homepage: Location: United States Comments: It makes me sick to my stomach. How can people be so cruel and evil. Why are they so afraid off. My thoughts goes to the family. We should all do something about it so this won't happen again as little as it could be it makes a difference.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005  9:00:50 PM Name: Megan Stettner E-Mail: pixie14g@aol.com Homepage: Location: United States Comments: I am an active memeber in the high school Gay Straight Allinace club, and although it is not much, i am always working day to day for people to except diffrences in our fellow man. I found Bills story inspiring and tragic, and i am greatful you have shared it with me

Tuesday, May 17, 2005  12:30:18 AM Name: cin rey E-Mail: Homepage: Location: United States Comments: you are supported by me

Saturday, May 14, 2005  7:24:52 PM Name: JGA E-Mail: Homepage: Location: Canada Comments: It is truly sickening that your son was attacked because he was bisexual. Sadly I must say this is a reality. People will look for resons to hurt others. His bisexuality hurt nobody and still people had to consern themselves with it and make problems for him. Truly discusting how our society can look down upon the homosexual population. Even though I am not part of that group I can understand their suffering.

Saturday, May 14, 2005  5:19:15 AM Name: Braden Rico E-Mail: ricobraden@yahoo.com Homepage: Location: Taiwan Comments: I found your web site one lazy Saturday afternoon while looking or nothing in particular. I have to tell you that the story of your son's life and death moved me very much. I want to speak out more against hate crimes and against intollerance and stupidity. I am so sorry for your loss and anyone can surely see that Bill Clayton was a wonderful, beautiful, young man. I am tired of sitting back and letting people like you do the work that needs to be done in every dark corner of the globe. We have to lift up the lighted candle wherever we are. Thank you for producing this meaningful website.

Thursday, May 12, 2005  6:14:25 AM Name: David Banks E-Mail: david_banks121@yahoo.com Homepage: Location: United States Comments: Hey, I was harrased yesterday by a bunch of ppl. They were sayin that gaywauds shouldn't be a United States Academic Academy Award Winner. Just because I am talented they r calling me a fag. I think they r jealous because they didn't get it. I lied when I said I came out because I havnt told my family but I have told my peers. It is tuff u no and I dont have a boyfriend 2 talk 2 so this sucks!  Oh and gabi i am srry he committed suicide because I am thinkin about it!

Wednesday, May 11, 2005  1:17:36 AM Name: Sherie E-Mail: vancouver_2005_bc@hotmail.com Homepage: Location: Canada Comments: I just wanted to say I am really sorry for the loss of your son. I really hope that hate crimes will fade away, and people can move on with their lives regardless of their sexual orientation. May Bill rest in peace.

Tuesday, May 10, 2005  12:41:49 PM Name: kala baker E-Mail: donnah37@yahoo.com Homepage: Location: United States Comments: I am so sorry that you lost your son to suicide. I lost my cousine to suicide just this month

Monday, May 09, 2005  5:18:45 PM Name: Ana E-Mail: justsayozzy@pop.com.br Homepage: Location: Brazil Comments: I will never forget Bill(may 08,1995)today is may 09 2005, 10 years later...God bless you Bill, and all your family...

Monday, May 09, 2005  7:25:41 AM Name: bewerbungsvorlagen E-Mail: susanne.deffel@web.de Homepage: http://www.vorlagen-q1.de Location: United Kingdom Comments: A pleasure to look at, go on with this! Thanks!

Sunday, May 08, 2005  8:56:56 PM Name: Steve E-Mail: stevejellis@msn.com Homepage: Location: United Kingdom Comments: To Bill's family and friends, i've just read your story and i'm so gutted, I experienced the same problem in school but fortunately I came through only to find one of the bullies from school now works at the same factory as me now, i've had a few confrontations with a group of them calling me all names even pinching money from me at our works cash point but i'm not going to let them win!! I've not told anyone in work or even my parents as they are just as homophobic but I relay on my boyfriend (of 3yrs last week!) and my close friends to help me through the tough times if only Bill had gone a few more years and found someone he loved then maybe h would still be here with you guys, i'm so sorry for your loss love from Chester, England x

Saturday, May 07, 2005  7:36:42 PM Name: Kody E-Mail: cythlin@gmail.com Homepage: http://www.cythlin.com Location: United States Comments: Bill's story is one of the many which keeps me fighting. I identify with what he went through, although it's been awhile since I was a victim of harassment. Since then I've gained a lot of friends, a lot of training in self defense, and a lot of the respecr of my peers. Being in such a safe place, however, does not cause me to forget that others are not so fourtionate. I have a lot of ideas, and I write essays about gay culture and what can be done to help those pople not as fourtionate as I am. Furthermore, I embody those essays, and it's stories like this that justify to myself every effort taken to releive the burdon some kids suffer just for trying to exist as they are every day. Bill's story, and others, have inspired a lot of thinking, as well as a lot of anger with the way things are. I am not the kind to sit idle while things are not right, and I'd like to thank you for making this public and giving me yet another reason to fight for what I believe in. This cannot be allowed to continue. A few of the articles I've written on the subject are at http://www.cythlin.com/radical. Once again, thank you for being an inspiration on a variaty of subjects. ~Kody

Saturday, May 07, 2005  9:09:25 AM Name: Holly E-Mail: quiet.summer.shade@gmail.com Homepage: Location: Australia Comments: I write to you with tears streaking down my cheeks. I'm holly, I'm 16, live in Australia and I'm gay. I'm only a year younger then Bill was when he died. Bills story did touch me, as does all storys of this nature. I am lucky you see, I am subjected to very little open homophobia. I'm not sure what I'm trying to say here, mainly that this proves more then ever that homophobia has NOT gone away. It is everywhere. However, its not just the open kind that is around, as you showed in the part about the lions club. Wherever and what ever it is it must be fought. Also, I have never seen a recount of someones life written with more love or more respect then Bill's. It is obvious you truly loved him and from what I read, I can see why. peace Holly

Saturday, May 07, 2005  2:28:49 AM Name: Valerie E-Mail: valliegirl@gmail.com Homepage: Location: United States Comments: I'm so very sorry for your loss. You've turned it into something amazing though, keeping his memory alive through this website and working for the cause. You're a wonderful and amazing mother. I'm certain Bill's very proud of you.

Friday, May 06, 2005  9:29:44 PM Name: Marcus Tozini E-Mail: Homepage: Location: United States Comments: It's great to see all the support you guys are giving to those kids out there who are suffering the same pressure and pain as Bill. keep up the good fight, never give up. as Bill lives in our hopes of a better world where gays and straights will live in peace with one another.

 

From: BogyandBacall@aol.com 
Sent: Thursday, May 05, 2005 7:22 PM
Subject: a note for your memorial

           i have read many memorils in the past few weeks and created an artcle to help. i deeply for you lost and hope this can help           

 

MY ADVISE FOR PEOPLE THINKING SUICIDE

         In the past few days I have read many online memorials on people that have committed suicide. These people who have created these web sights are those who are the grieving parents, siblings, relatives, and friends. They have told memories of the loved one, pictures from a baby up to the final picture taken; they took video images and even voice recorder. These people are grieving making their loved one known to the world because they saw in there loved ones what they them selves couldn't see.

 

              If you are having ideas of suicide thinking just takes a moment and look at the pros and cons of suicide. Here I can help with that there is only one pro and one hundred cons ill list a few

 

Pro-  you don't have to deal with whatever problem you are dealing with.
Cons- 1. it hurts the ones that love you
          2. It doesn't resolve the problem
          3. It spreads pain
          4. It destroys your purpose on earth
              Every one has a reason to be here
              Or god wouldn't have put you here

 

These grieving people that I'm talking about lost their loved ones and don't even know why saying what did we do wrong or if I only knew or why didn't he or she come and talk, to me. Some place blame on them selves, or on other things.
   Some of these victims that decided to take their lives are 11 12 13 kids young teens and pre teens for what ever decided to take their life because they thought unworthy.
         Now you're thinking no one loves me no one understands me, I feel alone, I hate myself, and I can't do anything good. That's bull
You are loved, you are understood, and you're definitely not alone.
   Here let me explain if it was true that these people committing suicide were useless to this world then why are their memorials if they were indeed worthless why not just forget them blow them off. Why not, why not because they were loved they were worthy.
     These people had potential just like you have, but they couldn't se it before it was to late but unlike them your alive you have a choice now you can either end it all and become like them see it to late or, live your life like every wants you to.  Just remember you are worthy you are loved and you are special.

 

        Now you're thinking who the heck are you. You have known problems you can never feel my pain. Unfortunately in the 19 years on this earth I had a lot of problems. Taken from my biological mother at 3 because who, like you thought suicide was the answer and attempted it many times. That didn't stop me from loving her. Tell you truth I had to tell her to get out of my life at 12 because she was hurting her self-physically and hurting me emotionally. I was lonely and unaccepted at school bullied teased and much more. 
   Yes I felt angry and alone but I never took suicide for option because I've seen my potential I seen my talent and what I can do alive I had a reason like you to live.
       If you're second-guessing me please read books on true stories. Ill lists some for you that i've read.

 

Books written by the authors
David Pelzler
Jodi  Blanco
Torey Hayden
And so many others these people either witness or were in troubled situation themselves and they did wonderful things with their lives.

 

 Besides reading talk to friends family parents. If your not sure these people cant help you then seek profeshional help and for teens do tell your parents they can only do half the work. You see on TV for parents to ask but they can ask to their blue in the face you need to answer. Remember once again your not alone you never are never will be and never going to be.
           Just remember the ones that have done it already. Read those memorials and see that they all had something in common they were talented writer's athletes and poets could write songs care for the people around them except themselves.

 

 In the end I'm saying if you're thinking of killing your self don't.
 You have loved ones and some one out there will be crushed and hurt and confused if you do it.
 I want to take the time to thank the love ones for letting me read the memorials and the one most important person you the reader.

For those that don't know me and most of those don't.

  My name is

  Michael James Bogdanowits

  If you need to talk or ask questions email me at bogyandbacall@AOL.com