Gabi Clayton's Guestbook #54 - From 10/10/04 to 12/4/04
Note: This guestbook reads from the bottom of the page up. -- Gabi

Saturday, December 04, 2004  1:48:08 PM Name: Ashley E-Mail: runkpockash@hotmail.com Homepage: Location: Ontario Canada Comments: I'm doing a oral presentation on homosexuality and plan to use your story as an example of discrimination. Thanks so much. I'm so sorry for your loss. I too, am a bisexual and can understand what Bill went through.

Thursday, December 02, 2004  8:55:23 AM Name: Dave Barciz E-Mail: barcizdj@longwood.edu Homepage: Location: Longwood University Comments: Thank you for sharing the story of your son's goodness and life and struggle with depression with me. I am part of a student-faculty organization on our campus trying to make it a more respectful and accepting environment for all. I hope by showing them the link to your story, reading your words will help make clicking sounds in our Longwood community heads as to how even some of our most innocuous words can build a sense of hopelessness and frustration and ultimate depression in another caring human's life. Thank you!

Wednesday, December 01, 2004  10:13:21 AM Name: Samantha Hearnen E-Mail: tigger_girl_08@hotmailcom Homepage: Location: South Dakota Comments: hi. i have been suicidial before to. some days i feel just fine and then other days i feel like dieing. i'm only 14. and then one day in school, my english teacher said that we were going to to a research paper on anything we want--and i picked suicide. i was just wondering if you could give me some sdvice about suicide since i have felt suicidal, and i need some more information about it for my paper...thanks :-)

Tuesday, November 30, 2004  5:40:01 PM Name: Camille L. E-Mail: Homepage: Location: Comments: I'm researching Neo-Nazism for an English project. I've been looking on the internet for about an hour and a half, and not really clicking on anything....just reading the little titles, and I came across your page. I was getting ready to just pass over it, but then got a feeling, and decided to click on it. After reading the story, I felt my heart drop. It amazes me how much hatered is in this world of ours! I think that people should put up more sites like this one! I'm using your son's story as one of my examples. I feel awful that you had to go through all of that! I honestly do! I hope fo rnothing but the best for you and your family(and friends)in the years to come! This hatered and evil needs to stop!!!! It needs to stop before it is too late! Thank you for this site, and you and your family are in my prayers! Sincerely, Camille L.

Tuesday, November 30, 2004  9:55:29 AM Name: Brad E-Mail: bradcorns@msn.com Homepage: Location: Omaha, NE Comments: What a tragic loss...The pain must be immense even after all this time. I understand the desire to end one's life as I struggle with it too. I only wish that my parents had been as supportive as you. Some people, like the religious zealots posting trash in the guestbook merely point out your whole point...Some people think they are entitled to discriminate against others in the name of God. These are the same people who beat and make fun of your son. It has been my experience that those who feel the need to abuse gay and bisexual people do so because of their own insecurities and latent tendancies. I myself bullied gay people until I finally admitted I was gay and came out of the closet. Sometimes the hate is not in their hearts, its just the way the corrupt society and corrupt politicians that govern us and encourage others to discriminate against anyone we dont understand. In the 30s, everyone blamed all of the economic problems on the Jews, when that was outlawed, they picked homosexuals and bisexuals. This too will end, but I pray for the next minority we decide to dump our own failures on. We as a society have now forced them to end their lives just by making them miserable over something that is predetermined at birth or before. Bill is dead, but the people who beat him were given a slap on the wrist. The man who raped him also was barely punished. My parents and teachers always told me that "life isn't fair" but they failed to mention just HOW unfair it can be. No wonder he couldn't stand it, I dont blame him, but it must be a real heartbreaking reality for his family and freinds. Thank God for your message and words of hope in such a cold, cruel world.

Monday, November 29, 2004  9:24:46 PM Name: Harris E-Mail: Homepage: Location: West Virginia Comments: First off, I'd like to extend my deepest sympathies to you and your family for the loss of your lovely and talented son. Like Bill, I am also bisexual and by being such I crave to be free from the intolerance and hate towards the GLBT community. Your son's story has given me the strength to fight for the right we should all have; to be who God made us to be.

Sunday, November 28, 2004  3:52:14 AM Name: Mary Flynn E-Mail: mflyn61@ev1.net Homepage: Location: Houston TX Comments: I accidentally came to your webpage while looking for "non-confrontational ways to respond to bigots and non-diverse people". I enjoyed reading the stories here, and was so very saddened by Fred's story. It helps me to understand better why my female friend is so cautious about displaying the rainbow colors when we travel together. I have been very sheltered from harsh bigotry, and am only recently learning about its horrors. I continue to be dismayed and saddened by the seemingly "nice, self-proclaimed "moral" people, who then reveal their true selves to me,with hate related comments directed towards differences in people...the pit in my stomach hurts!! Thanks for sharing.

Saturday, November 27, 2004  5:43:26 PM Name: kerisha randolph E-Mail: none Homepage: http://none Location: St. Matthews S.C. Comments: Your son was not the only one with problems i was and kind of still ar thinking about suicide and it is a hard thing to deal with. It can just eat away at you r soul until you can't take it any more, but your son's story is heartfelt and touched my heart.

Saturday, November 27, 2004  1:36:40 AM Name: B.R. E-Mail: Homepage: Location: Comments: "God MADE gays and God does not MAKE mistakes."

Wednesday, November 24, 2004  2:31:21 PM Name: Marilyn E-Mail: ayame1120@aol.com Homepage: Location: Indiana Comments: I have many suicidal friends, and everytime I try to talk to them, they don't listen. I hate not being able to do anything and thinking that they are going to die and I can't help them.

Monday, November 22, 2004  3:00:01 PM Name: carlos E-Mail: bor2nssteel03@yahoo.com Homepage: Location: arizona Comments: hey im really sorry about ur son bill im making a speach abotu teen suicide and i would like to talk abot your son

Saturday, November 20, 2004  12:40:37 PM Name: Brandy Matthews E-Mail: bm0294@myway.com Homepage: Location: Baton Rouge, La Comments: Your story about your son has touched me. Not merely my heart but also my mind.I'am deeply sorry for your lost but, I think society has the greater lost of being without your son. Thank you and others alike for speaking out for others like Bill and I.

Friday, November 19, 2004  10:22:14 AM Name: Ren Again E-Mail: hotbaby200321@yahoo.com Homepage: Location: Pa Comments: hey thanx for the help agin i am sry bout ur loss ha ha it turend out that that kyle guy was my bro ha ha dat was funni he loves me im glad i got the hlp i needed thanx to u nd ur site love always REn

Friday, November 19, 2004  5:14:09 AM Name: someone E-Mail: Homepage: Location: somewhere i belong Comments: i was browsing on the web looking for suicide on the gay young community,and found out about ur site...im writing just to let you know that i am really sorry for what happend to him...about a week ago i wanted to do the same thing ....nobody will never understand how we fell, the society we are living in are just making somebullshit about that if u are attracted by the same sex god doesn't look over you and all that kind of stuff that teachers,friends and sometimes parents ...just make us fell even more bad...U were great parents and supported your kid i just wanted to say that your story touched me alot and when i read your story i dont fell suicidal anymore you know ...i will live at least for Bill's memory and for all of us who are traped and caged ... im srry again... i didn't told my mom yet about my orientation i have to admit that iam scared she is the worst anti-gay girl in the world..but i will tell her someday and she will have to accept me as iam. srry again...i just wish the world wanst full of such bastards...

Thursday, November 18, 2004  4:13:47 PM Name: gary wullbrandt E-Mail: Homepage: Location: Comments: great story and im extremely sorry for your loss. i will never know your pain god willing and i can only say that im sincerely sorry for the pain you all have recieved through bill's death. im sorry for the hatefull world we live in sincerely gary

Wednesday, November 17, 2004  2:20:12 AM Name: fris E-Mail: frinadis@yahoo.com Homepage: Location: Comments: your stories touch me deeply and i hope those people who responsible for what happen to bill suffer the guilt for all their live. For those who is fear of gay, just treat them nicely though you didn't support the way their live. it's not going turn you into one.

Tuesday, November 16, 2004  9:47:23 PM Name: Selena Morris E-Mail: selenazz1@aol.com Homepage: Location: Providence Rhode Island Comments: I actually did not have the pleasure of knowing your son. I accidently stumbled upon this website. Soon enough though I was engolfed within this tragic story. I just wanted to say the way you are celebrating his life is excellent. I'm extremely sorry for your loss. Your heartfelt story has touched me deeply. Your strength and love is incredible. I hope you and your family members are coping together. Stay strong.

Tuesday, November 16, 2004  6:31:37 PM Name: Jarryn Smith E-Mail: hotgerl5@aol.com Homepage: Location: Washington st Comments: Hello i just wanted to say how much i apreciate you work.I am in a jounalism class at my school and you inspired me to take charge and give our school news paper an advise colum Scense sevral years ago we avnt had on. I find may people enjoy it so thanks and keep up th good work

Tuesday, November 16, 2004  2:13:49 PM Name: David Huerta E-Mail: dhuerta05@cityyear.org Homepage: http://davehuer.mogenic.com Location: San Antonio, Texas Comments: In tears, I hope and pray for your well-being. The events that happened will never be forgotten and hopefully I can help spread the word. My goal is to make hate-crimes something people are empbarassed of like slavery. I am volunteering ten-months of service to San Antonio; I dedicate my service, my smiles, and my love to your son. God bless him and everyone in the world.

Tuesday, November 16, 2004  12:22:16 PM Name: MIsty E-Mail: Homepage: Location: Dunlap,Tennesse Comments: I was very suprised that the Lions Club rejected needed organs. I would rather take my chances on a negative HIV test, than kidney or liver failure.

Sunday, November 14, 2004  6:41:51 PM Name: britten Martin E-Mail: Homepage: Location: Utah Comments: Hello this is britten, i read bills story and it really touched me.I thought it was very sad!I am a leisbian myself and i am SO AGAINST hate crimes and i think all hate or anybody thats hatered should die and go to hell.i wish you happiness

Friday, November 12, 2004  6:32:11 AM Name: Anika White E-Mail: anika_white@yahoo.com Homepage: Location: Wiesbaden, Germany Comments: Dear Gabi, I heard about your story in Dan Woog's book. I am an American teenager on a military base overseas. I was deeply touched by your story and want to share it with others. I started a Gay Straight Alliance at my school last year, and we want to do something special for you and your family. Thank you for helping fight the fight against homophobia. your son was born into a very special family and i wish i had the pleasure to have known him. God bless you and your family. Anika White

Thursday, November 11, 2004  10:07:08 PM Name: Cheryl E-Mail: Homepage: Location: Memphis, Tn Comments: this is truly a sad story and it really touched my heart. i am not for or against anyone who chooses a lifestyle that is different from the norm. i believe everyone should do what makes them happy even if that means stepping outside of societys little box.

Thursday, November 11, 2004  1:42:57 AM Name: Vernon Maldonado E-Mail: vemaldonado@netzero.net Homepage: Location: Albq., New Mexico Comments: So sorry about your son, your loss and the world's loss. This 2004 election led me to your site in my question of "morale values" expressed by republicans. I am not gay but I support gay/lesbian rights and now more than ever. The struggle continues ! Vernon

Wednesday, November 10, 2004  1:49:25 PM Name: Jordan E-Mail: twinkle_1204@yahoo.com Homepage: Location: Wisconsin Comments: I like the story!!! it was touching !!!!

Tuesday, November 09, 2004  1:46:24 PM Name: }; Dan ;{ E-Mail: dddevildan@hotmail.com Homepage: Location: upstate new york Comments: I just wanted to let you know that I read your sons story and it really touched me and my friends. I recently have come out to a few of my closer friends and told them that i was bi. They were accepting but im afraid to let my mom know 'cause i don't think she will be as accepting as you were to Bill. I just wanted to let you know that i am sorry for your loss.

Tuesday, November 09, 2004  12:00:19 PM Name: jeremiah E-Mail: Homepage: Location: seattle Comments: thank you for coming to meany

Monday, November 08, 2004  9:04:47 PM Name: Samantha Crosby E-Mail: angel_of_your_nightmare666@yahoo.com Homepage: Location: Brighton, Michigan Comments: I just read Bill's Story and just want to say how much it has touched me. My friends Dominik and Demetre are gay and i helped them come out. I also know how you feel about losing Bill. My friend Shane was murdered after he stood up for our friends Dominik and Demetre. The 5 guys that did it are still out there. Dom, D, and myself have to deal with Shanes death because it wouldn't of happen if i hadn't of made Dom and D come out and the night Shane was killed he walked me home causing him to take the back alleys. Shane, like your son, was 17. I just wanted you to know that i used your son's story, along with Shanes and other, to inform Brighton High School's 4th hour speech class that hate crimes do happen every where and that they are not going to go away. If you would like a couple of my speech you can e-mail me and i'll send you a copy. I thank you for posting your story and listening to mine. I am truly touched and i bet Dominik and Demetre will be too. Samantha Crosby

Monday, November 08, 2004  7:37:12 AM Name: Kyle E-Mail: hotbaby200321@yahoo.com Homepage: Location: Pa Comments: hey Ren u sound alot like my sis she is goin threw the same stuff as u she basiclly is u she is also 14 yers old and all i dun no what to say but im sry she is goin threw counsln dun kill ur slef WE NEED U in this world evan thou i dun noi u u have all my love in my hart hey for all i noi u could b my sis cuz like were both from pa nd my sis likes ta b called Ren in stead of Lauren hey that b funni if u were so ne ways dun kill urslef we need u and have a good reast of ur life ok love u and ur fam Kyle p.s nd what rember what would ur parents say bout all this and sibs nd all my sis was also raped by my friend to so dun b like u are keep happy nd dun hate love everyone im me at NFL1093 on aol or aim thanx ever so much ok we can talk more than im glad ur doin betta too iight now bye...........

Saturday, November 06, 2004  7:10:39 PM Name: Britnee C. E-Mail: carolcitychica@hotmail.com Homepage: Location: Miami Comments: I am sick to my stomach when I read about how people are being harrassed about the sexually. I feel they should live how they want to. And to all the people who create hate crimes MAY YOU BURN IN HELL .MAY YOU BURN IN HELL .

Saturday, November 06, 2004  9:30:01 AM Name: Andy E-Mail: andypants__@hotmail.com Homepage: Location: Bathurst, NSW, Australia Comments: Your very brave and i cant even imagine what you must have gone through and what u possibly still are going through, funnily enough bills story was my inspiration for coming out to my parents who were very accepting. Im not sure I would have went on for very long with these emotions bottled up inside me.. thankyou Gabi.

Friday, November 05, 2004  3:35:41 PM Name: Dustin L. Weaver E-Mail: doltonfisher@excite.com Homepage: Location: Denver, Colorado Comments: I am sorry for your loss, I have too been a victum of a hate crime, just not as bad.