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Gabi Clayton's Guestbook #53 - From 7/29/04 to 10/10/04
Note: This guestbook reads from the bottom of the page up. -- Gabi
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Sunday, October 10, 2004 12:22:41 AM |
| Name: |
katherine |
| E-Mail: |
moderndancebaby@hotmail.com |
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hi Gabi. I
read your story on mogenic.com and it was really moving.
I'm just 14 and i want to help more than anything to
make people see how stupid they can be, and make them
understand that everyone are really more similar than
people realize, or want to believe. I hate homophia so
much! i have a friend who was confessing her feelings
she was having for other girls and how she thought she
was lesbian, i kept thinking how sad i felt for her that
she didnt have a girlfriend i fooled myself into thiking
i was bisexual. That, and also the fact that i have
talked to gay people on the internet a lot and so many
of them have a kind of "hertophobia" as i
think of it. They talk like striaght people are not as
good as gays and ive even heard people say how striaght
people just dont feel the same love as they do. I know
how stupid this is but at the time i didnt and i thought
if i erally wanted to help i would have to be bi, at
least, so i asked my friend, the one i felt sorry for,
on a date. but in the back of my mind i knew that even
though i loved her in a friend way i was really
straight. I know how stupid that was now and i feel like
an ive been an asshole to her but i do want to help so
badly, it just rips me up to hear stories like Bill's. I
just want you to know how much i support your commitment
to helping so many people .. and i guess thats why i
clicked the "sign my guestbook" link in the
first place, i really didnt need to write all that other
crap. There are so many entries here i dont know if you
even read them all but it would be an honor to think
taht you couldve read mine. someday, when im done with
school, i really am going to make a difference. and im
going to try now, too |
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Thursday, October 07, 2004 3:56:46 AM |
| Name: |
Guy E.
Roberson IV |
| E-Mail: |
simon075@hotmail.com |
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| Location: |
Chicago,
Illinois |
| Comments: |
I have read
Bill's story. To my shock we have a lot in commen. A lot
of times I feel that the only way out is to commit
suacide like tonight. But noone ever realy listened to
me. I am 29 years old and I feel that I'm going to go
crazy if I don't help someone else from doing waht I
want to do. Its hard to explaine. I'm tired of being
herassed,beetin up,talked about and laughed at for being
who I am. It is not our contitution,It is not our
constitution, It is our differences that makes us equal.
Until we understand that as a sociaty and not a
community; we'll never overcome a damn thing. The only
way I can get rid of this pain is to help people. I
think I need help too. My condolences: I have a heart
for all life, it is always the most sad when someone
hates. |
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Wednesday, October 06, 2004 4:48:12 PM |
| Name: |
Ty |
| E-Mail: |
twoods4@tvi.edu |
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| Comments: |
my sincere
apologies.........i can relate and understand the
troubles each person has to consume. I send you all my
love and prayers. Love Ty |
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Tuesday, October 05, 2004 8:21:42 PM |
| Name: |
Esmeralda |
| E-Mail: |
sweetesme29@sbcglobal.net |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Los Angeles |
| Comments: |
Im truly sorry
for your loss this page has touched me in many different
ways.I felt upset to hear what some people are capable
of doing,I thought about my little brother and something
I would never want him to go through.Im so sorry for
your loss and I pray to god all of your wounds would
heal. |
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Monday, October 04, 2004 7:13:12 PM |
| Name: |
Jesus Bello |
| E-Mail: |
jbello@stis.net |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Miami |
| Comments: |
I'm very sad
and touched by reading your page. I am a Cuban man who
survived jail and horrible social harrassement during my
adolescent years in the island, solely because I was
accepting on the open that I was gay.
I never suspected that in this so promised land of
freedom I was to encounter so much of the same hate I
came running from. It's a silent killer so strong that
even those who survive remain marked forever. I'm sure
your son Bill is somewhat somewhere smiling &
sheltered with the warmth of your love. Receive my
strong hug and best wishes: Jesus Bello
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Monday, October 04, 2004 3:11:45 PM |
| Name: |
John Graney |
| E-Mail: |
terrygraney@netscape.net |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Spain |
| Comments: |
why do people
want to hurt others for their feelings? I will never
understand the need some poeple have to kill what (or
those who are) different. |
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Monday, October 04, 2004 5:44:50 AM |
| Name: |
Christopher |
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| Location: |
China |
| Comments: |
I am so sorry
to hear about your son, Bill. He was a brave guy
compaired with me. I am a college guy in China and gay
too. Sometimes I just wanted to come out but everytime
at the last moment I faltered. Bill knew who he truely
was and he was able to pursuit what he wanted, encouge a
lot people and he is still doing this. I am such a guy
who has been encouraged by him to pursuit what I truelly
want. Thank you Bin as well as you, Bill's mother.
Thanks for sharing Bill's story with all of us,which
must have been encouraging a lot people. Best wishes to
you! Blessings to you! |
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Monday, October 04, 2004 12:46:52 AM |
| Name: |
Jason Welle |
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I am so sorry
to hear about Bill. I can tell he was an amazing person.
I know that there is much hate in this world and that
bothers me grately. I like to consider myself an
activist for equal rights for all sexual orientations. I
still am really upset about you story and I pray for
your family. I can tell that your son was an amazing
person during his life and even through his death he has
been helping people gain awareness of hate, and maybe
has even changed peoples views. Take care and god bless
you and your family. I know that Bill is looking down
from heaven right now. Thank you very much. |
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Sunday, October 03, 2004 5:52:02 PM |
| Name: |
lee ann |
| E-Mail: |
suagr1babe3@hotmail.com |
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| Location: |
memphis |
| Comments: |
i hope time
can heal your loss..only time will.. i think its
horrible these boys only got 30 days in jail a little
community service..maybe their parents shouldv'e taught
them that everyone is different and we all have feelings
emotions i can only imagine what your son went through
his time here.. i can only say children these days are
so hateful and just dont care for other people..they are
taught this growing up by their parents in my belief...
i have a four year old if he came to me and said he was
gay i would accept it he is my son..you teach your
children from a young age on how to love one another.
how to react to certain situations.. my best friend has
been through the same thing.. weve been friends for 15
years i would protect him from this kind of hate crimes
he has to hide his sexuality now thats hes in college
for nuclure medicine i hope he can over come his
obstacles in life .... and i hope god blesses you family
with everything your heart desires..just for the comfort
of knowing you will see your son again one day sorry for
your loss |
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Saturday, October 02, 2004 2:36:05 PM |
| Name: |
Thomas
Dorsey-Payton |
| E-Mail: |
trnyack@optonline.net |
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| Location: |
Amityville, NY |
| Comments: |
I can truly
empathize with you and your family I am also homosexual
and was bashed a few years ago getting my nose & jaw
broken, as well as major rib bruising. I pray for your
family to have the strength to continue and make others
aware of what hate crimes do to our families |
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Saturday, October 02, 2004 2:33:09 PM |
| Name: |
Douglas Dorsey
- Payton |
| E-Mail: |
celticangus01@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
http://groups.msn.com/flameofhope |
| Location: |
Amityville NY |
| Comments: |
My Condolences
to you and Yours,After reading this I posted Your sons
story on This site under gays and lesbians. I felt that
it was time for the rest of the world to understand what
Hate is all About. I too understand Your Son for im a
gaymale and have been bashed at an early age bby those
that were narrowminded in there ways. Thank You For
Sharing your sons story.
God Bless You and God Bless Your Son.
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Friday, October 01, 2004 3:39:55 AM |
| Name: |
Blaine |
| E-Mail: |
sloopy312@comcast.net |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Washington |
| Comments: |
To The Parents
and Loved Ones of Bill,
Robbie and All Who Have Lost the Most Precious Gift that
God Gives Us-Our Children.I am sorry and forgive us for
not loving your child.Please allow me to say the most
important thing.If you are a youth who "just
happened" upon this site because you are gay and
you might be thinking about suicide please understand
that there is a guy here you have never met,who doesn't
even know you that is weeping for you as he types this
message. And if a stranger can weep for you consider how
those who are close to you will weep. We can no longer
see your face, tell you how much we love you or hold you
in our arms and thank God for you. Please understand
that you are God's crowning act of creation and He knew
who you were before you were born and that he loves you.
You have value and an exciting life before you.God does
understand your hurt,rejection and lonliness because He
left heaven for earth and wrapped Himself up in human
skin so that He could really know what it's like to be
you.And then after 33 years He said "I love you
this much", stretched out his arms and was
crucified for you.And the name we called God when He
lived on earth was Jesus.As a kid I was several times
beaten till bleeding, unwanted by my dad,sexually
molested and after a failed rape the man touched a
loaded rifle on my head and said he'd kill me if I
told.I told and a few weeks later I hit the ground where
I was fishing and watched bullets hit the water 6"
from my head.That angered me but what hurt was the look
of disgust my dad gave me like his fag son had it
coming.By the 11th grade I feared neither man or God and
could care less whether I lived or died.Now many years
later I am alive and can walk in gang neighborhoods at
midnight because these kids know I love them. My past
sought to destroy me but instead its used to help
others.I tell you this to let you know that out of your
pain you can help others but only if you are alive.God
bless you.We care.Blaine
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Wednesday, September 29, 2004 12:28:22 PM |
| Name: |
angie |
| E-Mail: |
goldylocks_17@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
kirksville |
| Comments: |
even though i
am not gay i do want to send my apologies for the
ignorance that he went through i am sory stay strong |
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Tuesday, September 28, 2004 4:22:54 PM |
| Name: |
Kareem Prodigy |
| E-Mail: |
k_prodigy_nyc@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
New York, N.Y. |
| Comments: |
I would
like to extend my deepest sorrow for the lose of your
son. I am currently in NYC doing research on the issues
in the transgender community. I am a transgender person
female to male who has been living like this since I was
16 years of age. I am now 22 years of age and still
trying to fight transgender issues, I commend you on
fighting for the cause. |
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Tuesday, September 28, 2004 6:16:29 AM |
| Name: |
ulil |
| E-Mail: |
cute50246@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
indonesia |
| Comments: |
good story.
make me sad. its so touch.... |
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Monday, September 27, 2004 1:41:23 PM |
| Name: |
Josephine
Leela Shaffer |
| E-Mail: |
josephineshaffer@aol.com |
| Homepage: |
http://josephineshaffer.org |
| Location: |
Johnstown, Pa. |
| Comments: |
Hi! i gues u
remember me in the past when gay male now i am
transsexual female now i guess i'm now a lesbian i like
being a girl it's my wishes and dreams and it seems like
it came tru my name was Joseph Shaffer thanks. |
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Monday, September 27, 2004 10:33:48 AM |
| Name: |
Phillip's |
| E-Mail: |
crazy_monkey_honey@yahoo.com |
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| Location: |
Jakarta-Indonesia |
| Comments: |
Oh My GOD!!!
Hope I had a mother like you... |
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Sunday, September 26, 2004 11:22:07 PM |
| Name: |
Leticia B.
Durán |
| E-Mail: |
lduranb@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Calexico CA |
| Comments: |
First, sorry
for my English mistakes. I'am second language student,
and my primary language is Spanish. Is so hard
understand why people act like the criminal that hurt
Bill. But it is more wonderfull the love you feel for
your son. It is a great example for people with the same
probllem. Maybe this happen because as Christ die for
others, I think Bill's dead help many people to
understand that humans are equal and doesn't matter
their race, color, or religion they belong. Thanks for
rainforce my feelings with your story.
Again, thanks and sorry for my grammar mistakes. |
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Saturday, September 25, 2004 12:13:31 PM |
| Name: |
Yahoo Mail |
| E-Mail: |
mberne@marchmail.com |
| Homepage: |
http://yahoo.mail.fastlook.net/ |
| Location: |
USA |
| Comments: |
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to put your website in my Favourites -- it is something
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Saturday, September 25, 2004 8:07:10 AM |
| Name: |
Kris |
| E-Mail: |
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| Homepage: |
http://www.poetrypoem.com/dementedmentor |
| Location: |
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| Comments: |
That was the
worst thing I've ever heard. How could someone be so
brutal to another human being? My mother has a
homosexual cousin, and we love him to pieces. It is
wonderful that you allow his memory to stay strong. |
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Friday, September 24, 2004 12:10:59 PM |
| Name: |
grovonda
burrell |
| E-Mail: |
tattooryder01@yahoo |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
fresno,CA |
| Comments: |
Gabi Hope you
are doing well. I just read your website in regards to
your son's story. I'm so sorry for your loss but
remember he will be w/you 4-EVER. I'm a 39 yr old
lesbian and i can feel the pain he was going through
growing up. I try now to get involved with groups that
are reared for the youth as they have it alot worse than
i did growing up in the 70's and 80's. My prayers are
with you and don't stop what you are doing because if we
all had/have parents like you that love their children
UNCONDITIONALLY (I was very lucky to have this type of
parents) the world would be alot easier to live in
amongst those that hate. Stay strong and God bless you
EVERYDAY. Please feel free to e-mail anytime. |
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Friday, September 24, 2004 7:20:14 AM |
| Name: |
Justin |
| E-Mail: |
bernie_0080@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
http://momotaru.blogspot.com/ |
| Location: |
Oregon |
| Comments: |
I'm so sorry
for your loss and grateful that you are coming out and
telling everyone about this horrible tragedy. I just
don't know what to think about people after reading the
article on http://www.mogenic.com/Article.php?ArticleID=24.
It just tore me up inside, and I hope your family is
coping with everything! Thank you for telling his story. |
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Thursday, September 23, 2004 5:38:52 PM |
| Name: |
Claudia |
| E-Mail: |
csladen@aol.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
California |
| Comments: |
Gabi,
I am the Mother of a Transgender youth (female to male)
and I live in a town where another Transgender youth was
murdered almost two years ago. Bill's and your story
touched me deeply. I cannot begin to know your agony at
loosing him but I have shared your anxieties and worries
for a child that walks in a world of danger and pain.
Our family (and friends and neighbors also have been
very supportive)accepts our son unconditionally
(although changing pronouns is a challenge!) but the
world does not.THANK YOU for continuing your work to
make this world a better, safer and more accepting place
for our children. I will continue to visit you and Bill
for inspiration. Claudia |
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Thursday, September 23, 2004 2:04:10 AM |
| Name: |
Aaron |
| E-Mail: |
chopsracing@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Australia |
| Comments: |
What a shit
website |
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Wednesday, September 22, 2004 2:13:30 PM |
| Name: |
Ana Paula |
| E-Mail: |
justsayozzy@pop.com.br |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Brazil |
| Comments: |
BILL WAS A
TRUE HERO.I will never forget him.LOVE YOU DUDE.Thankx
Gabi...God bless you and all your family.Im 21 years and
I fell so unhappy for Bill and the others with the same
problem- the hate from the peoples- but ,I BELIEVE IN A
BETTER WORLD FOR ME AND YOU. |
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Wednesday, September 22, 2004 12:00:28 PM |
| Name: |
brian |
| E-Mail: |
binoforever@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
pittsburgh,
pennsylvania |
| Comments: |
God Bless you
and your family. |
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Monday, September 20, 2004 11:51:45 PM |
| Name: |
Han |
| E-Mail: |
dh473@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Indonesia |
| Comments: |
Dunno What to
write. The story touched me so much. I'am an Indonesian
who has the same orientation as Bill's. Here we cant be
so open as you in America. I wish i can do something to
support you. Thanks for the story. |
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Sunday, September 19, 2004 7:18:55 PM |
| Name: |
ken |
| E-Mail: |
kenone@blueyonder.co.uk |
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| Comments: |
I ave gone
thhrough the agaony of losing Trevor - someone elses son |
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Friday, September 17, 2004 4:39:20 PM |
| Name: |
mike healy |
| E-Mail: |
mjrhealy@yahoo.com |
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DEAR GABI,
THERE ARE NO WORDS TO EXPRESS MY SORROW FOR YOUR LOSS.
IN MY OPINION BILL WAS A TRUE HERO.
AS A 47 YEAR OLD GAY MAN,I HAVE SPENT MY LIFE TRYING TO
UNDERSTAND WHY A PERSON WHO IS GAY IS HERE FOR IN THIS
LIFE. I HAVE NOT COME TO A DEFINITE CONCLUSION,BUT I
FEEL I HAVE FOUND SOME ANSWERS.
HAVING BEEN RAISED CATHOLIC, I HAVE FOUGHT THE SELF
HATRED EVERY DAY THAT I HAVE BEEN TAUGHT TO BELIEVE. THE
RESULT IS THE SAME AS YOUR SON'S,CONSTANT SEVERE
DEPRESSION.
ABOUT TWO YEARS AGO, I DISCOVERED A BOOK BY SYLVIA
BROWNE WHICH LED ME ON A ROAD TO FURTHER DISCOVERY ABOUT
PAST LIFE REGRESSION. IT ALWAYS BOTHERED ME WHY SOME
PEOPLE WERE BORN WITH AN EASY LIFE AND SOME PEOPLE WERE
BORN WITH HARD LIVES. IF GOD IS FAIR AND LOVING AS I
BELIEVE HE IS,WHY WOULD HE NOT BALANCE A GOOD LIFE WITH
A BAD ONE. THE ONLY WAY I FEEL HE CAN IS BY GIVING US
SEVERAL LIVES WITH SEVERAL DIFFERENT THINGS TO LEARN AND
YES SUFFER IN EACH LIFE. PAST LIFE THERAPISTS BELIEVE
THAT WE CHOOSE OUR LIFE GOALS BEFORE WE COME INTO THIS
WORLD.
THEY ALSO FEEL THAT ONLY THE MORE ADVANCED SOULS LIKE
YOUR SON COULD PICK SUCH A DIFFICULT LIFE LIKE HE DID.
HIS GOAL IN THIS LIFE WAS TO TRY AND PROMOTE TOLERANCE
AND UNDERSTANDING,WHICH HE HAS.HE ACHEIVED HIS GOALS.
ANOTHER GOAL MIGHT HAVE BEEN SELF ACCEPTANCE. THIS IS A
MUCH HARDER GOAL WHICH I HAVE FOUND THAT ONLY A LUCKY
FEW GLBT HAVE ACHEIVED. BILL WAS STRONGER THAN MOST TO
HAVE ACHEIVED WHAT HE DID,BUT I FEEL HE MAY COME BACK
AGAIN AS A GAY OR BISEXUAL TO ACHEIVE HIS GOAL OF SELF
LOVE. HE WILL MAKE IT.HE HAS LEARNED SO MUCH AND WILL
TAKE IT WITH HIM INTO HIS NEXT LIFE. I AM SO PROUD OF
HIM AS I KNOW YOU ARE. I HOPE TO MEET HIM SOMETIME WHERE
WE CAN DISCUSS WHAT WE HAVE LEARNED AND HOPEFULLY MAKE
THE FUTURE BETTER FOR SOMEONE ELSE.
THAT IS WHAT WE ARE HERE FOR. TO LEARN AND TO HELP
OTHERS.AND TO LOVE. THERE IS NOTHING ELSE THAT MATTERS.
MAY GOD GRANT YOU THE STRENGTH TO CONTINUE YOUR OWN
GOAL.
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Wednesday, September 15, 2004 5:42:40 PM |
| Name: |
Nicole |
| E-Mail: |
jooonokashaku@msn.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Massachusetts |
| Comments: |
Hi Gabi. I am
Nicole, a 16 year old lesbian. I read a large article on
Bill's story on Mogenic. (www.mogenic.com) I felt
compelled to continue on to your web page and leave you
a little message. I will keep this in my favorites and I
will not forget your son. |
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Sunday, September 12, 2004 6:17:17 PM |
| Name: |
Cathryn R. |
| E-Mail: |
angelsilent9@yahoo.com |
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| Location: |
IL |
| Comments: |
I can not
thank you enough. I am a bisexual female, and still just
a freshmen is highschoo. I came out to my parents when I
was 14. Your sons story has made me realize so many
things. Thank you.... thank you so much. Bill's story
has changed me. Thank you. |
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Saturday, September 11, 2004 9:41:38 PM |
| Name: |
jenk |
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| Comments: |
hey i just
read that story in my guy friends info and omgosh that
is so sad and i m also a lil irked that those guys only
like no time for doing what they did to ur son! but
neway, i so admire what ur doing that truly shows u love
him still and that u are a strong person. i have a good
guy friend who came out to me and i so supported and
didnt leave him and also i m glad that ur family didnt
disown him and whatnot.. that shows true love! yay for u
..neway i ve done enuff talkn thanks for u time
jen k |
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Saturday, September 11, 2004 10:11:24 AM |
| Name: |
John |
| E-Mail: |
collinstormcrow@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
http://www.freewebs.com/burghrights/ |
| Location: |
New York |
| Comments: |
I'm back again
to post the link to my site. I'm still working on it but
I'm doing the best I can with what I can get. Thank you
Mrs.Clayton for the wonderful e-mail. |
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Saturday, September 11, 2004 2:41:42 AM |
| Name: |
Jeanette |
| E-Mail: |
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| Location: |
New Jersey |
| Comments: |
I just want to
send you my deepest and most sincere condolences on the
loss of Bill. I feel so sad that the world turns people
away just because of sexual orientation. I am
heterosexual but one of my closest cousins is homosexual
and he has suffered from depression for many years,
since he and I were in our preteens. Now, as adults, he
is in prison for murder. No one would accept him and it
broke him down. Please keep sharing Bill's story. Maybe
more eyes can be opened. Best Wishes and God Bless. |
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Friday, September 10, 2004 10:45:31 PM |
| Name: |
Jesse |
| E-Mail: |
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| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Wisconsin |
| Comments: |
Great Web
Site :) |
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Wednesday, September 08, 2004 8:13:53 PM |
| Name: |
John |
| E-Mail: |
collinstormcrow@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Troy New York |
| Comments: |
I've visited
your site for the first time and was moved by Bill's
story. I have to say because of his story and a few
other factors I've decided to become more involved in
Gay rights and protection from bullying and harassment
in schools in my area of New York. I would like to say
thank you for the Inspiration Mrs.Clayton and if you
don't mind I'd like to sign again later with a link to
the site I plan to set up. |
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Monday, September 06, 2004 1:20:11 AM |
| Name: |
Edward |
| E-Mail: |
fellafab@hotmail.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Louisiana |
| Comments: |
For Jamal- I
tried to email. I find Gabi's page because a friend of
mine killed himself this weekend. He was the most
talented person I know, and I'm trying to figure it out,
and my best friend is trying to figure out how to tell
her 5 year old daughter, who loved him dearly. I am 26
but I don't feel much older than 17. I know I felt like
you write about in this entry. I've struggled through
times in life, especially until I was 18. I went to a
backwoods high school and thought I would never have
anyone to connect with. I always struggled with
depression and loneliness. After I graduated high school
and slowly got to really look at the world, I found
there are people who understand me and hear me and agree
with me and actually see me. It took me even longer to
realize what kind of impact I have on those people who
need me because I understand them and hear them and
agree with them and see them. And that’s why I keep
on, because I’m not worthless to those people. I keep
on because of people who would have given up long ago if
it weren’t for me, and I promise you there are people
whose lives you make worth living. I still find myself
struggling sometimes to feel good, but those times come
farther and farther apart as I realize every so often
another reason that makes me in disposable. At 26, I
can’t imagine having missed out on all the wonderful
people I’ve come to love. Yes, it would have been nice
to veer past the pain to get here, but it didn’t
happen that way, and I’m still here, and I’m well.
The same things you deal with today will one day seem a
lifetime away- like it happened to someone else. Just
think of that one person who looks to you for the
support and comfort they can get nowhere else. Think of
their life without you. And think of all the beautiful
people you’ll never get to know if you take it all
away. The world will continue with or without you, yes,
but it will lack the gift you have brought here, and for
that, it will be less colorful. |
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Saturday, September 04, 2004 9:03:23 PM |
| Name: |
karen |
| E-Mail: |
brmobile@bellsouth.net |
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mobile ala. |
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i am so sorry
4 your loss. people can be really ugly creatures. i wish
you all find peace. believe that god see's all and will
repay. my deepest sympathy to you all. |
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Thursday, September 02, 2004 10:23:07 AM |
| Name: |
Manshil Misra |
| E-Mail: |
deepstuff@polka.co.za |
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| Location: |
Durban, South
Africa |
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I just came
across this by accident...and I was really moved by your
story. I'm sure you must get this all the time, but I
would just like to add to this sentiment...
I find you and your family extrememly
inspirational...your continued courage in the face of
such a tragedy...just makes me feel so hopeful for the
future of humanity |
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Wednesday, September 01, 2004 11:26:13 PM |
| Name: |
FRED MAGA MUMU |
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fredmag@fsmail.net |
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| Location: |
LISBON
PORTUGAL |
| Comments: |
SO GOOD JUST
SAY YOU ARE A GAY OR HOMOSEXUALL AND I WANT TO LET YOU
KNOW THE COMMUNITY WILL NEVER LIKE YOU AGAIN WHY?FRED
DON LAND OO. |
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Wednesday, September 01, 2004 8:55:55 PM |
| Name: |
Jamal Pennie |
| E-Mail: |
coolcat615@juno.com |
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| Location: |
Florida |
| Comments: |
For the recent
reply i have placed on this guestbook i beg for
forgiveness because i had no right to place my judgment
upon another's problem, So please accept that what i
wrote is my personal feelings upon life and i do not
wish for my thoughts to encourage others to become like
me because this is who i am and this is how i have
always been so please forgive me for the recent reply i
wrote because it was stepping out of my place, because
everyone has their own life and i do not wish to harm
anthers because mine is already damaged |
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Wednesday, September 01, 2004 7:53:23 PM |
| Name: |
Scott |
| E-Mail: |
revels_are_good@hotmail.com |
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Scotland |
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Gaby,
the story of your son's life made me cry. He was
incredibly brave and strong. It is sad that he cannot be
here today to see what you have achieved but I'm sure he
does know.
I have suffered with depression for 4 years now and only
after my suicide attempt last Christmas eve did I notice
how precious life is.
I am a 16 year old gay teenage boy and I of course
suffer abuse, both physical and verbally.
It is so sad that people can be so narrow minded.
Hopefully one day this all changes.
My thoughts are with u.
xxx
In reply to that idiot that posted about God not
accepting gays or something along those lines:
Get a life! Your views are not welcome and neither are
you. Find someone that is as homophobic as you to talk
to and learn how to use proper sentence structure. Bill
was not gay, he was bisexual, there is a difference.
-Sorry about the above comment but homophobes annoy me.- |
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Wednesday, September 01, 2004 2:25:30 PM |
| Name: |
Jamal Pennie |
| E-Mail: |
coolcat615@juno.com |
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| Location: |
Florida |
| Comments: |
I understand
the amount of pain it has taken to cope with your loss,
But there is something you must understand, Suicide is
the only way for some of us to feel real freedom, I
myself am suicidal and am bisexual but it is not because
of my sexuality that i am suicidal its because of my
childhood and the pain and abuse I've been through in my
life, But i just need you to understand the reason why
his suicidal intentions were no stated to you was
because it was a battle he had to deal with on his own,
Which is the same thing i have to deal with now, i am
also 17 so me and bill are a lot alike in many ways, but
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